Fatigue

Today I am tired. Not the kind of tired where you feel sleepy and happy, not the kind of tired where you can't keep your eyes open because the lids feel like magnets, but the kind of tired where you can't possibly think of anything else but rest and relaxation.

All day long at work I think about how in a few days I will have some reprieve from everything that's been pumping through me for the past year (or several) and that I will be able to slow down and manage my thoughts/life/feelings better. I'll be off in another country, exploring and playing, instead of thinking about monster issues that have no real answer, much less conclusion.

I'm not just physically tired, but my entire head just needs a big long break from thinking about everything. It feels like all I do is think and think and nothing ever really changes - not in a large scale way.

Anyway, this is really just to admit my fatigue, so that I can weather it better. I probably won't be writing much for a while; I think the computer sucks my energy into a vacumn.